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Thursday
August 16th, 2007
6:47pm
 
mood: confused
uhh im so sick of this i miss him im trying to move on and no i cannot and there is like no good guys out there they r all the same and i kinda thought i like this one kid but he is like young and i dont no about it yano i kinda like those older guys soo im way confused and i think i mihgt wannna start my skool yr off with out a b/f yano it might make it way easyer i just dont no anymore sooo frusterated he moved on and is happy y cant i be?? i just dont get it at all and i hear all this shit that he supposibly dia nd i dotn no wat to belive gosh i dont im venting so it=f this sound dumb srry im just so frusterated pluse myspace is down lol k well im done i suppose lol
 
     
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up here away from that   
Wednesday
July 18th, 2007
7:00pm
 
mood: hopeful
yeah so i seen brent and it wasnt a good thing i miss him alot now that i thought a bout it i get scared and again i leave now instead of 14 hrs away im only and hour and a half but that still keeps me away from him and wantign to see him but he helped that by being a totla ass to me lol uhh idk im doing good its jsut hard but no one said life was easy i seen the babys mikle and maylee omg i wanted to cry but i held it in and hear them call me aunt lexi when i no that amber gets to be around them gets at me bad ill be ok but right now it sux ass i wish it didnt end or not liek this atleast uhhhh idk know anymore i was all depressed but that get boring lol so i gave up adn now im adaquite but still not 100% happy beign with friends helps sooo much and knowing theres other ppl out there is nice and there is anouther guy but we both arnt ready for a big realtionship well i no im not lol but any way ooo i think im getting the ol lip peirce lol o god !!
 
     
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yesterday   
Monday
July 9th, 2007
5:58pm
 
mood: happy
ok the past to days have been amazing!!! i love it i have been home and with my friends beached it up partyed a lil bit and hung out with the ppl that mean most to me i finally think im starting to be happy again and moving on talkin to a few ppl and happy bout it. the waves where amazing as well summer cell was fun and i have nothing to complain about but if anyone want to chill call me luvs ya
 
     
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this is how its been so far   
Thursday
July 5th, 2007
3:28pm
 
mood: content
so it is almost been 2mnth that brent and i have been apart and yeah i miss him but im moving on slowly but surly lol he didnt wait he is with someone and over me it seems witch is kinda like a slap in the face cause i thought wat we had was somthing more i guess... but u learn with time i thought i could run from the hurt get away and it will be ok wrongo lol im coming home tommorow and i no that there will be the times i see him in the stores with her and the runins at the partys and i dont no wat ill do its almost like i got away from it so quick that now that im coming home to it i wont no how to handle it i guess. Im anticapating the feelings i have tried to hide. I am coming home and cannot wait to see my family and friends to party it up and have a great summer im just hate the fact things are the way they are i hate knowing how things ended and the fact he did wat he did.. but i no that i need to let it go and move on and i no that eventually when im ready and when i let go of the hurt that i will find someone again that makes me happy and until then i will be just fine idk just soem thought prolly sound really gay lol but yeah hit me up sunday going to the beach give me a call lexi
 
     
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i really dont no what to do   
Friday
May 25th, 2007
9:57pm
 
mood: blank
wow this week has been the hardest week this hole year i think that i really dont no what to think. I miss him already, he hugged me and all i wanted to do is cry, i thought mabey this is what i wanted or needed i thought i would be happy and singal and carefree but the only thing i can think about is what he is doing or if he still loves me or thinks about me. Fucking pathetic i no i just cant help it maybe leveing a while might help i hope so... i thnk the hardest part right now is goign from seeing him almost everyday to not going to see him at all anymore. I guess i will be okay i just wish it wuld stop hertijng sooo bad
 
     
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excited   
Wednesday
May 23rd, 2007
9:36pm
 
mood: chipper
so im going to maryland for like a mnth or mabey even longer!!! I cannot wait i need to get away and clear my head leave the past week behind and just have a good time with no drama and no u no who lol and hopefully it will help me feel better about the whole situation. Plus im gonna be on a military base hello men in uniform all over now that is enough excitment all in its own!! well The past 2 days havent been the easyest but hey im living and i still might to get to see the babys and amber,and brian so i am happy they will talk to me. so things r looking up!
 
     
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wow   
Tuesday
May 22nd, 2007
10:31pm
 
mood: confused
i hate how u go from evverything being ok to it into tiny peices on the floor infront of u one minuet u think u r in love over ur head and the next u get treated bad enough to not no what u want and then u just give up and call it quits. and i really dont think there is going to be anouther try i think i am throwing the towel down and giving up and stating singal finishing high school and going to collage and mkaing my goals happen. I need some one who nows there are going to do something with there life and right now i no that all i can do for mine is try my hardest to make it as easy as possible. and yea i will miss the littel things but someday i will find some one new and those little things will mean nothing and yes i no i will always think about what we had or wonder what it could have been, but right now i know that it i wasnt what he wanted and because i love him the only thing i want is to see him happy and if i am not the one to make him that way im no there will be some one to do what i couldnt and i am sure there is some body who will make me happy. And all i hope is that with time we can atleast talk and be friends again
 
     
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lately   
Monday
April 23rd, 2007
10:16pm
 
mood: content
well everything is going really well lately and i'v been quite content prom was alright i had fun and the next day rocked lol went to the mall then batting cages and after that arcade games lol i got a really cute new top for brent graduation party i no its in like a month but still hmmm idk brent and i are doing really great lets not jinx it or anything but we r doing pretty good 2 weeks ago we went up norht and went fishing and brent rowed me around in a row boat lol it was soooo funny and we didnt catch a thing i had to get that out lol my brother is home from florida and i havent got to see him once and it kinda pisses me off, softball is starting to really piss me off but i will suck it up and make best with wat i got hmm i dont no like a month and a few day skools out and then 2yrs more to go lol looking for a job if anyone knows of anything let me no other than that i dont have much more to say
 
     
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softball   
Tuesday
March 27th, 2007
8:29pm
 
mood: angry
ok this year is starting off super sucky like i hert my foot and got x-rays today so havent been able to run so i got picked up and my step dad talk top the office ppl and brought me back for 5 and 6th hours then at the end of the day they told me i couldnt practice cuz i didnt have a docs note hello r they stupid my step dad came in and talk to them so i had to sit out at practice and then tommorw i miss a game cool :( then spring break!!! but then when i leve for florda i miss 3 games and when i get back i miss 2 more and dont think ill get to play thurs so now im gonna miss 7 out of 17 games yeah so im pissed but hey i guess thats what i gotta do. o and pretty excited cuz no ternamt on prom day thank goddd o and thats coming up cant wait!!! I just want summer to get here andd this year to be over with minus the part brents graduating lol thats anouther thing im worried about and i no i shouldnt be but i am, well just have to take things one day at a time and hope for the best cuz really its all i can do.
well i htink im out ....
 
     
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amazing   
Sunday
March 25th, 2007
8:54pm
 
mood: jubilant
so every thing is super today was sooo awesome i worked made some mulah and bought new shoes and a sweet new shirt and then went to subway and then went to the batting cages, after that we went and got a shake i no real healthy lol we went back to my house played some catch and the best part of it all wasnt every thing we did it was being with the person i love and being able to just have fun and be happy!!! last week sucked at my house but brent just makes things better and well today was just amazing!!!!!!!!! I love him soooo much and umm hello 1st game wends holly shit and then spring break baby!! o and the week after that flordia see blake things r looking up so lets hope they will stay that way cuz we all no its good for a while but then it sucks... o and this month was brent and my 2 1/2 and i cant belive it lets hope we make it to 3yrs and then mabey 30 lol well thats bout it!!
 
     
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okay   
Saturday
March 17th, 2007
7:34pm
 
mood: energetic
todays st.pattys day and well i went shopping for like to hours w/ my love went to buffalow wild wings and now just chillin u no things hit the bottom but eventually they get better and right now there good like i said right now but who nows what they will be like in a few days but right now who cares SOFTBALL started and i love it my boyfriend still is my boyfriend and i love him and my lovely neice and nephew are here and i love them sooo much not to menchin amber and brian they are great to have around !!! to bad they live so far away :( you no i never thought i would get attached to anouther family like i did w/ brents, usually i dont liike to let myself but after 2 1/2 years they grew on me lol and dont no wat i would do w/ out them !!! that is a sacry thought though but hey its worth it!!
 
     
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recently   
Saturday
February 10th, 2007
5:06pm
 
mood: energetic
well havent ben on in like 100 years brent and i r doing soo good adn that makes me happy i just hope things wont change when he graduates every body keeps saying it wont end up workinjg out and that sux asss but i hope it will i mean weve been toget her 2 1/2 year y not make it the reast of our lives lol ooo and 4 valintines he got ma my prom dress oooo it soooo pretty lol i got it early so i was excited umm other wise iv just been doing the same old thing skool and work about it well thats bout all
 
     
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Tuesday
December 19th, 2006
2:37pm
 
mood: amused
well god alot happing in a little of time blakes gets home soon and is getting married the next day i hate school it boring and brent and i are doing better than ever but i guess im a little scared because wat if he just decides he wants to break up again idk well im at school and gonna go soon ooo i died my hair brown and putting redish in it w/ highlights kool i hope loooking at tatoos today get a price well fufn fun lex
 
     
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Sunday
December 10th, 2006
12:02am
 
mood: pissed off
I fucking hate DEcember nothing good ever happens uhhhhhhhhhhhhh so my brother how was geetting married nope not any morre boyfriend well n/m and goodddddddddd i hate this mnth!
 
     
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Sunday
October 8th, 2006
6:14pm
 
mood: annoyed
y si it so hard to let go of things im trying but god its hard i love him i forgive him i want to be with him but its hard to let go of wat he did i will and im trying but the anger rises right back to the top when i think about wat he did it was a long time a ago he srry i should let go y wont ilet my self i hate it wat i have do is wrong also so well i dont im just venting soooo ...
 
     
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hmmm   
Friday
October 6th, 2006
10:04pm
 
mood: content
well its all goood every thing i love it all brent expecially o man i dont no wat happend but every thing is great let hope irt remanes this way cuz u no i stays good fro a while and crashes i hate that a lot bu twat can u do lol well in a wedding in lke 2 weeks excited!! o and the dress is hott brent = love and i dont no wat i would do with out that kid we went and did his senior pic soo hott we got a couple together !! well im out
 
     
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2 days   
Sunday
September 10th, 2006
3:06pm
 
mood: happy
2 days and it will be 2 years from the day brent and i started dating omg im sooo excited i love him and this summmer we both found things out we didnt want to no we broke up twice and we got reallly good at pissing eachother off alll the time all in all its perfect we r deeply in love i honestly can say i want to spend the rest of my life with this one person! its been 2 yrs so y not make it 200 more lol hes the one for me even when he makes me mad or tells me things that piss me off its all apart of a relationship and i love it i no this probably sound cheese but its all true hes is that one person i can share everything with the one person to go to when all i want to do is cry he holds me and he is the one to tell me its gonna be ok.we both want a life together even if it wont be easy getting it we have been through tough times but the good out ways the bad no body can garentee forever but everybody can hope for it well im at his house prolly should go muah
 
     
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been on in a while   
Tuesday
August 22nd, 2006
11:09am
 
mood: energetic
so havent wrote long time so lots to tell blakes getting married !!!!! sooo happy love him soo much coolest part im in the wedding woot woot hehe ummm maylee yeah she tried walking to me how cute i love those kids blake graduated basic tranning and now is in florida very kool brent and i r doing good im still super scared that he might break up with me every thing is good im just scared other wise every thing is good with us skool starts soon gross but idk ready to get it done with it soooo umm hopefully soon ill get to chill with the girls ooooo i went to exas it was soo fun it ws really hott though umm went on the lackland airforca base i was crazy brent went with me we had a good time god i really love him lol but yeah thats bout it and ummm ooo 1st football friday ooooo yeah cant wait love u all
 
     
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holy shit   
Sunday
August 6th, 2006
5:48pm
 
mood: awake
welll things have turned aroound 360 it is nut dont talk to that person no more and brent and i r talking again not together but talking i love him but i hope i dont get hurt agin thats alil of wats up ttyl lexy
 
     
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wow   
Monday
July 31st, 2006
12:57am
 
mood: confused
u no i thought not being with him would sux and nobody would amount to wat kind of person he was but now we havent talked hardly at all and all i hear is bull shit about him makes me happy that im talking to some one new its like im moving on but alot faster than i would have ever exspected i still cant belive wat brent did i trusted him things wernt perfect but still i never thought he would hert me the way he did this (person) im talking to i great its feels like we have bben together alot longer but we havent only like 3 days talking for 4 before that liked him since like 7th grade and got caught i anouther relationship im gonna give it a try and hope for the best !!!! its a little scary though but i like him alot ..... well tierd nighty night



lexi joy
 
     
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